30 Days of Truth Day 14

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Dear Mom, 

     It is not easy to write this letter to you, but this is the best I can do at this point since we are not speaking to each other right now. I know, I made the choice to not speak with you, and don't take your calls, so I could be mostly at fault for that. However, you hurt me. You wanted me to make a choice that I didn't want to make, and when I made that choice, you were angry with me for it. 

     You may not know it, but you were my hero growing up. I know we haven't always gotten along, but I was always so proud of how hard you worked, how you supported me and loved me, and the rest of the kids. I admired you. I thought you would never let me down. You always seemed to have the right answers, even when we didn't agree. Now that I am grown, I have to make my own decisions and do what is best for my family. I am faced with the same decisions that you had to make over the years. You ALWAYS chose your family... your husband and children. I may not be married to Keith, but he IS my family, and of course my two children. So I must do what is best for them. The decisions I make are to benefit MY family now, not the family I grew up with. 

     The bible even says that after the children are grown that they make their own family, and that is who they should be true too. Yes, you love the family that raised you, but you create your own family and have to think of them first. That's what I am doing, and it's the choice that I have made. I'm sorry that you are not happy with this and don't agree with the decisions that we have made. I am happy with them, and know that I can look back and be proud of what I have done and accomplished with my family. I hope that one day you will understand this. 

     I hope that one day you will understand and maybe not forgive me, but respect me and Keith for our choices that we made to benefit our family. 

   I love you and always will, but right now, I am hurt and it's hard to respect you and talk to you right now. You feel the way that you do because you are standing up for YOUR family, but can't respect the decision I made to stand up for MINE. 

     One day it will all work out... I pray it will. Until then, keep my dad and little sister safe, loved and healthy. I love you all. 

Love your daughter, 

    Emily Mae