30 Days of Truth Day 08

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

I love this one, only because it's asking you so very blunt, to tell everyone who treated you like dirt. Well, shit, in this case as it says. That makes me laugh. Don't ask why, it just does. 

I'm stalling. I'm thinking of ways to avoid this question. I could give some names from High School, or Junior High to avoid the truth, because heaven knows, most would believe that since most people have the worst experience during those years of their lives. I didn't love those years, and of course I was given shit and not always treated the best, but overall, they were much better years than some of the years afterward. 

I'd say the person who sticks out the most is from my first semester of college. He was my boyfriend. I adored him, and thought we would be together through the rest of college. Boy was I wrong. Everything seemed to start out so well... except I should have realized he was just in it for sex. That's all it was to him. Looking back on it now, I feel so stupid. He told me he loved me and that we would always be together... blah blah blah. You know the lines.... and of course, I believed his sorry butt. His name was Travis N. He knows who he is. 

The reason I feel like he treated me so badly is because of how we broke up. Everything was going so well, until my roommate told me that Travis had come to her with a problem. Actually, he had written her a note. He wrote her a note that said he was in love with someone else and he couldn't say anything... how this girl made him hear the angels sing... blah blah blah. I was so hurt when I read it. Not to mention that when I confronted him, he completely ignored me. We never really broke up verbally. It was like the note ended it all. To top it off, all of our class knew everything, and even who the girl was. He wouldn't tell me of course who she was. Yes, I was pissed at her, but it wasn't like she did anything. She couldn't help it. I was just hurt. 

He never talked to me again. Ever. We reconnected once via Facebook or Myspace and he had been married for a while by then... not too that girl though, to someone else. The reason I feel like I was treated like shit, and the reason it bothers me still so much is the fact that he never talked to me. He never said a word. He wrote the note, and then acted as though we had never been together. That was it. Even when I contacted him years later, he never said a word. It was then I realized how people could lie and tell you they love you and not mean it. 

Had he told me he wanted to break up himself, it would have been better. Instead he basically denied knowing me, and that hurt worse than anything else. He was only the second person I had ever been with and the one I really meant it with. (I thought I did anyway...) 

I won't lie, I did something terrible to him after he began to ignore me... it was a week after he stopped speaking to me or acknowledging me. I took the note he wrote and copied it with the names, well, my name, blackened out, and wrote on the top of it, "What a boyfriend.... he can't even just talk to his girlfriend, he has to write a note!" Juvenile? Yes, but revenge was the only thing that made me feel better for just a second. Ugh... I still can't believe that I sunk so low! 

So, that's my story. Travis is the one who treated me like dirt, and I can seriously tell you I do not care for him one bit. I do not think kindly of him, and have not said the best things about him. However, this is the truth and I am sharing it.